I was going over old Blog entries last week, and it’s amazing to me how much has changed in just a year. It’s not just the political situation, but also the fact that I wasn’t at all thinking “kids” like I am this year when I’m basically obsessed. And the old pregnancy posts are so interesting. I had already forgotten some of it, like his little bird flutters in the early days. That first ultrasound he was such a froggy thing, and now he’s a real human being with recognizable parts on the ultrasound screen.
I’m well into the third trimester now, and close enough to 8 months that I’m claiming I am. I felt like complaining through a lot of this pregnancy, but for some reason I don’t want to do that anymore. I don’t think things have gotten better. I think I’ve just become resigned to them. The hip pain only gets worse with time, and I can almost feel my pelvis rubbing in disturbing ways when I try and climb into bed around my pregnancy pillow. I’m waddling, and I say “oof” just about every time I get up and start moving (which amuses me). I try to do it quietly the 12 times a night I get up to pee so I don’t wake Brian. Someone deserves to get sleep around here.
But honestly, I’m not doing that badly. My constant pregnancy cold seems to have gone away, and I AM sleeping fairly well. My Gestational Diabetes diet is repetitive, but it’s all stuff I like to eat. I have never been so excited to be diagnosed as anemic, because the iron pills have me feeling GREAT by comparison. I mean, I still feel mostly like I could use a nap. But the debilitating exhaustion is gone, and I’ve even been able to enjoy things that would have floored me previously – the LA County Fair, Oak Glen Apple Picking, a shopping trip longer than 15 minutes… And the hip pain is only really bad in the mornings and at night after I’ve been static for a long time. As soon as I get moving, the pain is manageable.
At my latest appointment, we got excellent news. Baby is measuring at an estimated 5 lbs 3 oz, so that’s one complication of Gestational Diabetes we dodged. No Macrosomia (big body). He cannot physically gain 5 additional lbs in a month so even if things go totally off the rails he won’t be over 9 lbs. I’m breathing a sigh of relief since I’m the one that has to give birth to him, and would have been pressured to induce early and/or have a C-section. We still have Jaundice and his non-ability to regulate his own blood sugar to dodge as complications, so I’m not totally off the hook. But knowing we’re clear of one makes me optimistic we can be clear of the others.
The baby is getting more fun. He’s so big now that I feel every little flutter, and can sometimes feel individual body parts. His toes sticking out near my ribs are the most common. His movements are strong enough that he sometimes wakes me up at night. His arms like to dig into the space near my hip joints. My gigantic stomach undulates when he moves, and you can clearly see it rippling. It blows Brian’s mind. It kinda blows mine, too, although I’m more used to it. It’s this weird combination of disturbingly alien and exciting.
I was doing pretty well with the stretch marks, too, until recently. This kid has been pushing out on me for more room, and I noticed the other day that they’re everywhere in a nice line across my stomach. Don’t tell anyone, but I like it. I’ll be happier when they fade from purple, but I have this kid on me forever now. It’s like nature’s memorial tattoo, and I didn’t even have to deal with needles to get it.
We’re at T-minus 5 weeks and some change now until we meet this fellow in person. I’m hoping it will go fast. I’m REALLY looking forward to Jelly Belly Sours, gingersnap cookies, and small baby toes. I predict he’s going to like Christmas lights, too, although maybe he’ll be too young to notice. Still, even if HE’S too young, I can enjoy penguin onesies and small Christmas sweaters.
I do hope he decides his birthday is soon…
Casey E. Hamilton 