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Garden Time

It’s been daylight savings time now for 17 hours and already I feel the sun baked vigor of summer creeping into my bones.  I planted a garden last week, quickly wiping the backyard of the air of death stagnating in the corners, left over from that cat corpse I found about a month ago.  It was strange and wonderful to me how quickly my backyard was transformed.  A couple of hours hard manual labor, a few tomato plants, and my backyard is no longer the city of weeds.  It’s a real backyard, where you want to have a party and barbecue, spend the afternoon sunning yourself, or spend another afternoon digging in the dirt. 

I have garden plans.  I’m putting a flower garden in the back corner of the yard, and I’m filling it with all sorts of amazing and beautiful plants.  Don’t ask me what those plants are yet, but it’s getting done and it will be spectacular.  I have decided.  My main problem right now is that it’s a shady spot that gets literally NO sun during the day, and I don’t like many shade plants.  There aren’t many shade plants to like, for that matter. 

I thought I had the black thumb of death, as far as plants are concerned.  Every living chlorophyll creature I’ve taken care of to date has died a crisp death of brownness in a rock-hard (yet attractive) pot.  I think I’m the only human being on earth who has ever killed a cactus.  His prickliness died a soggy death of over watering- overcompensation, perhaps, for my previous attempts at keeping things alive.  It may be a sign of my increased maturity that I can be responsible enough to water plants nearly every day, because I’ve had a beautiful pot of pansies since Valentine’s Day, and they are growing and thriving like no other plants I’ve ever owned.  Lovely.  Who knew I had it in me?

It’s nice to know this side of me is still there.  I used to love helping my mother out in the garden when my sister and I were youthful girls still living as a family with a parent or two, as the case may be.  Then I was only ephemerally responsible.  I could plant and dig to my heart’s desire and not have to keep anything alive.  That was someone else’s job.  I love it still, and my biggest disappointment is going out into the yard each day and seeing no visible changes since the day before.  When I really sit and think, things have grown a lot over time, it’s just hard to notice when you’re out there every day.  

If you need me I’ll be out in the sun, sweaty and mud flecked with a trowel in my hand.  Hopefully the plants will thrive for a little longer, and my black thumb of death will turn at least a vague shade of green.  We’ll see!

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Of Myths and Constellations

I have a guardian angel.  Well, OK, I guess he’s not exactly an angel, but he has been in the sky for thousands of years.  He’s one of the oldest men around.  Or oldest three men around, if you live in France or South Africa.  He also doubles as a canoe if you live in Australia.  Now how many men can you say that about?  He’s a smart handsome guy, and he doubles as a canoe!

But seriously.  Orion has been showing up in some strange places lately, and I love to think of him as my good luck charm.  Every location he’s shown up has been somehow injected with wonderful for me, and it’s nice to look at his off-kilter frame shining brightly in the deepest blue of the night sky and know that good things are happening. 

It’s funny, a few years ago I couldn’t pick Orion out of the sky if you paid me.  I could find the dippers, if you gave me a few minutes, and the Milky Way, if you took me to a dim enough location.  I remember one night, staring up at the millions of twinkling stars, cool dewy grass beneath my bare feet.  My mother, who seemed so tall and adult to me, pointing out the constellations she knew.  The crash-hush of the ocean played in the background as we stood between the two red ancestral houses and gazed at the sky.  I guess he must have been one of that bunch, but it wasn’t until I was practicaly an adult myself that I could point him out to anyone, as my mother had to me.

I started seeing him over Brian’s house when we were dating.  He hung out there, reposing lazily on his side over the roof of the house, twinkling and winking at me as I emerged from the car.  He’s sometimes over my mother’s house too, when I need a good cheer-up.  But right now, if you drove into my driveway, you would see how he shines like a beacon above my new little house.  I turned around the other night at work, waiting for the parade to come gliding in, and he was there too: directly in the path of the bright bulbed performers.  He had that look on his face too, the one where he seems imensly proud of himself.  Like he’s the cleverest thing around to have thought of being there, of all places.

It seems like I have been in a world of myths lately.  Between all the research my lovely husband has been doing, and all the fairy tales I’ve been reading, Orion arose at the perfect time.  The Greek Gods killed him for trying to rape Artemis a few ages ago, and I like to think that he’s trying to mend his ways now.  If he keeps watch over me, and assures that no harm comes to me, maybe his redemption will be forthcoming.  

 OK, OK, I know I’m a little insane sometimes.  I promise to lay off the fairy tales for a while.  But still, it’s a lovely thought, don’t you think? 

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Resolve

What is it about the new year that’s so incredibly inticing?  It brings a wash of happiness to me every year as the clock strikes twelve and the bedlam erupts around me, a joyfull din.  I guess it’s that the new year brings so much promise with it, so much hope that the next one will be better than the last.  If I wasn’t afraid of tempting fate, I would say that anything is bound to be better than last year.  I compromised on every deal I ever made with myself, tried to sell my soul for money, almost lost everything I really care about, only to realize that none of this was neccisary in the first place.  Another year older, another year wiser, I guess.

I have a few New-Year’s resolutions this year, and I intend to tell you about them.  I think I will be more likely to keep them if there’s some record of my wishes.  It will be fun to see what takes off soaring, and what falls like a lead balloon.  The only one I can remember from last year was not biting my fingernails, and I accomplished that admirably until E. P.  started up again, and I lost every single fingernail to costuming emergencies.  Oh well, they went for a good cause.

This year I intend to:

  • Keep my car clean.  The poor thing, with a nickname like “trashmobile”, and nothing it can do about it except long silently for the vaccum.  This shoud change.
  • Appreciate the husband more.  He’s really such a wonderful fellow, and I don’t give him nearly enough credit for all his amazingness.  (yes dear, I know Amazingness isn’t strictly a word, Mr. English Major, but it applies to you just the same.)
  • Go back to school for real this time, and not just because my parents want me too, and that’s what girls my age do.

I think that’s just about it for now.  Of course I still intend to work insanely hard and be the best Lead that E. P.  has ever seen, but I like to list tangeable, measureable things as resolutions.  That way a girl can tell if she’s succeeding or not. 

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I’m New To This

Do I realy have anything to say?  That is the prime question.   Brian, my excellent husband, and I were talking the other night about ordinary.  He says that ordinary uptight people like us have no future as writers because we simply have nothing to say that is interesting.  We have no strange bohemian experiences to relate, no tales of being stranded, no stories of our travels.  When we have a day off from work (which is never) we go to Disneyland or the movies without fail, when we go to a resteraunt we order the same exact thing on the menu that we always have, and we’ve only ever traveled to see family.

I don’t believe that living an ordinary life bars you from having something to say.  There are plenty of authors that write about everyday life as most of us live it.  Garrison Keilor and Louisa May Alcott, for two.  Everyone has an opinion, everyone has relationships, and everyone has experiences that are worth while.  No matter where you live your life or how many things you’ve seen.  Lack of experience does not make you any less of a human, or your life any less meaningful. 

This Blog is intended as an experiment.  To see how long I have something to relate.  I think I can keep going for quite a while, but you never know.  I guess we’ll all find out.

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